August 2021


August 10, 2021

Ten days, eh? So much for consistency in writing. If I'm gonna be completely honest with you—and let's be real: that is the goal of any of my writing—I've been afraid. The health program has being going so well (more on that in a moment) and my mental health hasn't felt this good in likely forever. I've been terrified of jinxing it. So, until that fear passes, we're intermittent with the words. Okay? Okay.

I need to vent a bit, here. I've been formulating a(nother) piece on the effects of social media, and I gotta say: I'm legitimately angry at how pretty much every account on every platform has users dedicated to promoting the best parts of themselves. It's that whole aspect of the fuckmess that is digital society that really has me fearful for the future. Because no one is the walking, talking best version of themselves. That ideally-angled profile picture that makes a face look half as wide as it actually is. The curated posts that make it seem like lives are being fully-lived when they're just as empty and devoid of meaning as your own. The fear of putting out original thought. No one wants to be judged, or make a mis-step. But it's those stupid thoughts and random mental vomitus that make us actualized people. I dunno. It's just started pissing me off to the point where I no longer want to read any of it. And maybe that's the point. I've known for a few years now that the best channels for "creative content" on social media all flow in one direction, from creator to consumer. It's when you get entangled in what the kids like to call "discourse" (also another irritant, sprinklings of sand in the ointment) that things get outright fucky.

So anyway. The health program passed its 30th day yesterday. On the one hand it's a little difficult for me to believe that it's been a calendar month already, but on the other I'm relieved to have pulled it off. Nothing has stopped me from getting up at 3:30 in the morning and hauling my carcass to the gym. In those 30 days I've managed to build up a great foundation of muscle and cardiovascular health, with the knock-on effect of stabilizing my body weight, body fat, and body mass index. The trends are looking very healthy indeed, and I'm more than satisfied with what I see in the mirror. Self-love is at an all time high, and I plan on riding this horse right into the sunset. I need to make some adjustments to the physical program page here on the site, but they're minor. The basics still stand: sleep, hydrate, eat clean, get the heart-rate into cardio zones for at least 30 minutes a day, and (safely!) lift weight. It honestly couldn't be simpler, and the only thing separating me from anyone who thinks they can't do it is time and determination. And possibly mental/physical health issues but that's just life RNG, what can you do? Thank the creator we got decent rolls in those departments!

There. I wrote something. Are you happy?

Completed today:

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